Sister Mettra

Dearest friends and Fam,

This week has been tiring ha I'll be totally honest, every single day I fall asleep during lunch and dinner... nothing new for me ha! I have never felt so drained in my life, but its a good drain but man am I tired. Whenever I feel this way i read our heritage and get shut up real fast ha. So now I have a new comp Sister K Anderson from Las Vegas it is like night and day to Sister Pervaiz. All of the sudden someone else is talking during tours not just me. I told her she has to have patience with me cause I'm not use to having someone talk along with me. I have really tried to develop Charity and Love this whole month and to see these people as children of God. The way our Father in Heaven sees them, and I testify that it is possible with the Lords help. For the first time in my life, I rely solely on the Lord every minute of the day and it feels right. We need not to be afraid no matter what happens in life, The Lord is in it. I had a thought this week ... While we were covering the desk early in the morning when it was silent i looked under the desk and saw the panic pull button. That's used when we cant talk cause its to dangerous and we need help. But i thought about people on this earth, they use the panic pull to save themselves from so many things. But they use temporary satisfactions as their panic pull... But how blessed we are to know that we don't need that pull. God walks with us everyday, we aren't alone. I am so grateful to know that through prayer I can talk to my Father in Heaven and he will hear me. Sure we have hard times I will raise both of my hands to that... But I also know that they help us grow, help us become more like the Savior.

I prayed and prayed for a spiritual experience this week that would help me teach the gospel simply and teach exactly to their needs. Then we met Jianyang she is from mainland China.... If you aren't aware missionaries are not in that part of the world yet. I felt a reverence come over me i hadn't felt before, I was being trusted with her soul and I needed to help her feel the spirit. It was a tour with 3 people and the other 2 were kinda space cadets in their own world didn't really have much to saw. One was from Salt Lake and I'm pretty sure he was not really interested because his friends had invited him maybe a could of times. He said he had 5 copies of the book of Mormon. The other was really nice from Idaho but kinda kept close to the guy. As we took them through out the square I was confused on how i was going to personally touch her life, I prayed as we walked.. Father please help me to know what to say. We decided to go over to the conference center and the Lord made it perfect .. no one was there just us and these guests. The organ was light up in dark blue and the spirit was so strong. I wasn't loud and spoke very slow. Sister Anderson shared some of the facts about the Conf Center. And I didn't know quite why but I felt like I needed to bring the spirit even stronger in this room. They all were speechless at the room as it was but I decided to sing. I could barely form the words the spirit was thick and i knew they felt it. After singing we took them to the book of Mormon gallery where we had a moment I'll never forget. Jianyang looked at every painting carefully and the other two just kinda walked around not giving it a second thought. We decided to share more about the painting of 3 Nephi 11.... We asked what do you think it would mean if you knew the Savior came to the Americas... Jianyang just kinda shrugged her shoulders she hadn't really thought of it cause well she didn't know God. Again the feeling of reverence came and I decided I would read 3 Nephi 11. After reading I looked up at her and she had tears in her eyes. We said what do you think of that?... " This is truly amazing." We invited her to learn more and receive a Book of Mormon, she was calm and accepted the invite. I was so grateful that I was able to be a instrument in this amazing moment. I know that when we are reverent and speak the voice of the spirit it can penetrate any heart, no matter where they come from or who they are. We will be teaching her on Friday :) Ps she is going to school in Michigan so its safe to teach her.

Modern day Miracles...

I love chat! Although sometimes i want to cry with the things they say to me, we are here to find the elect and keep going. I've never been cussed so much in my life. I understand now why that's literally like swords in someones soul. We need to be very careful what we say to people. But on the contrary... words are beautiful and sometimes make or break a moment. We had 3 miracles on chat this week and honestly sometimes I can barely believe them myself. Brad came online he is in the military and wanted to know more about the book of mormon. Well somehow we convinced him to let us call him hehe. He is from Canada 27 years old and when we started talking I was kinda nervous cause he was super intense and doesn't joke much. But we set up an appointment to call him the following day.... We started with a prayer and he was kinda caught of guard but like I've said before.. ALWAYS PRAY. We invited him to pray the next night. and he did!! He said he felt good but that's about it and we told him that was a start! Who would have though one sec he is online next min he is praying.

2. john ... Now he has a little different story he came online to ask about the Honor code of BYU? ha he thought it was interesting that a bunch of college kids would actually follow all of those rules. And I'm grateful I went to BYU so i could help him understand how amazing it really is when we live a higher life style. Then he started to ask about morals and word of Wisdom problems. My comp was like sign off with him he is being an anti... I said Sister Anderson this man really wants to know our morals lets tell him, although some of his questions were a little hard to answer with out feeling awk we did it. Sister A said i could take this one ha. Seriously I feel so comfortable addressing these issues cause I know that when people actually follow them, their lives will be blessed. So we talked everything from sex before Marriage to porn addiction to lusting... Ha like i said never thought I would ever talk about all of this. But we ended saying we know that our bodies are temples and that when we treat them as such we live a better life. Why have the temporary satisfaction of doing bad things.. when you wake up you feel worse about yourself anyways. Well he wasn't comfortable giving us his phone number but we gave him ours and figured he wouldn't call...... 10 hours later I get a voicemail from john he wants to learn more! He said thank you for addressing my questions I've never thought about life like this before its interesting, we will be teaching him this Thursday! Always give these people the benefit of the doubt and God will touch their hearts if your doing your part

Texas Pride!!

We met a man named kurt he was such an angel! And he was from..... HUSTON TEXAS!! I immediately loved him duh. Well Kurt was just passing through for business.. ( as they all think) Ha we knew differently. I was actually on exchanges with Sister Ettienne! One of my roommates in the MTC. It was an amazing contact and one that I will never forget. We asked the most soul searching questions and the spirit was there every time. He has a christian background and has a strong faith in Christ. He wanted to walk around himself... but we kinda avoided that part of his wishes haha sorry he will thank us later. Well we started with the painting of the Lord at the pool of Bethesda and how that related to all of our lives. I said, " You know sometimes we have that blanket over us we are paralyzed in darkness and we need the savior to shed some light. The Lord sees those in need, and we can see the light through drawing closer to him. Then we started talking about prophets and i read Helaman 5:12 .. he started asking about the book of mormon :) .We explained a little more and took him to some other gallerys. Then we played for him the clip of Joseph Smith and asked him how he felt about it. He said I don't doubt that he prayed, but I don't know if he really saw God. The spirit was so strong as we both bared testimony of the power of prayer. We moved to the last room to show him what a prophet today would say. He said he thought it was nice but still doesn't know if Thomas s Monson could be a prophet. Sister Ettienne then shared her conversion story, coming from the south it was perfect cause she is from Kentucky! We invited him to receive a Book of Mormon and he declined.... Then he asked me how i believe all of this. I then said something that I will never forget. As I explained how the gospel had always been a part of my life the spirit started to enter the room little by little. Then tears formed in my eyes and i said, Kurt i always believed in God never really doubted he was there. But it wasn't until i got on my knees and asked if he was there till I received an answer. I now Know God is there. It was so simple yet so clear, I know. He didn't end up accepting but i don't think Kurt will ever forget how he felt.

Many more things have come this week, the darker the circles under my eyes the more miracles ha just means I'm working hard. I know that God is our Loving Heavenly Father and listens to every word we say. Even when we feel he is far, he is listening and loves us very much. We are his children.

Love Sister Mettra