For the last time

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18 Months Later... the LAST one:(

Dearest Family, Friends and everyone I LOVE

Here we are 18 months later. As my hands touch this key board I feel them trembling a little trying to find the words to express how I truly feel. Its surreal sitting here writing this email knowing it’s my last one. This past week has been amazing the Lord is truly blessing us for all our efforts. We are realizing how truly sensitive we are to the spirit, we cry daily with just a simple testimony of the Savior. Because, it’s much deeper than I ever dreamed it’s real. This mission has gone through me I haven't gone through the mission. I truly believe 18 months later I've found who I really am and where I came from. I know that you find your purpose when you find Jesus Christ. I couldn't have made this journey alone. How can I really sum up 18 months of memories? When I stepped on Temple Square just 18 months ago, I never expected the things I would learn or really who I would be at the end. I think the experience of this mission has been much like a stone in a river.

Like stones in the river, we are tossed and turned when the current moves so strong but stones in living waters over time are shaped until the edges are gone, polished and smooth, that's what we will be, if we put ourselves in god's hands each day of our lives is a gift from the giver to smooth all the edges like stones in the river

I have been shaped in every possible way. My rough edges of fear are gone, I trust him. I’m grateful for the strong currents that have pushed me to change. I always said, this mission will save my life and in many ways I believe it has. What a blessing and honor it’s been to serve the Lord for a year and a half of my life. This week we were teaching Jacob one of our most favorite investigators and we issued him a challenge to read Alma 7and Luke 2 and think about who Jesus Christ could be to him. And to finish this sentence with three words, Jesus Christ is___. I’ve been pondering on that myself in personal study and there are so many words I could use. But Jesus Christ is hope, love, happiness to me. It’s amazing to watch hearts change when they find Jesus Christ in their own lives and apply it. I want to share the miracles of this week there has been many so brace you. This is the finale!!

Common Sista Really

I might as well start with one of the most recent. Alfonso from Alabama quite the character let me tell you that. Sister Harmer and I were at the west gate just talking to the 30,000 people here for the lights when Alfonso walks up. We started talking to him and learned that he has met with missionaries before but wasn’t sure if the church was legit or not. We showed him a mormon.org video on Paris. This guy from Alabama who found the church and is now serving a mission. We actually gave him a Book of Mormon and encouraged him to keep meeting with the local missionaries. Sister Harmer and I were able to testify so briefly and powerfully why this was important. It felt so good; I think heavenly father was preparing us for after mission life missionary work.

Eymard!!

Don’t even worry one of the happiest moments on my mission. December 10^th 2011 Eymard Martin was baptized in Ireland. We are so proud of him, we called him the day before he was baptized and he was so excited to be baptized. He said thank you for everything you’ve done for me so that I can receive the restored gospel. Here are some of his quotes.

“Just Taught that id send you a quick email before I go off and get baptized. Hope you are well. And have an awesome day thank you for all that u sisters have teached me up to my baptism”

Hey, Sister Jenna & Sister Amy!

“Just back from my baptism,

You wanted to know how I felt, after it, Well first I felt a little wet, and that I needed air, like if I was ducked underwater. hahaha okay, I felt great really felt the spirit, and more so when I went to change and had some time to my self for a few mins,”

What a blessing it’s been teaching Eymard. He is amazing and after we talked to him I could hear a change in his voice. Even though we never met Eymard face to face, he has made an impact in my life. Really though Sister Harmer and I were smiling all day! I’ve attached pictures.

Michael in Ghana

We LOVE Michael this week we had to say goodbye to him because it was our last time calling Africa. He is hilarious I remember the first time we called him he was watching Oprah and then the second time cheaper by the dozen he said he was keeping a low profile ha. He is seriously amazing; I wish everyone had the chance to teach Africa. They are so prepared and are waiting to come unto Christ. His response to us leaving our missions was, “oh no no why you leave me?” With the sweetest African sigh and then said, “ Jenna and Amy I will be baptized December 23 2011 you skype me from America. (ps if you didn’t know that is my birthday and Joseph Smiths so it’s a pretty big deal!) We told Michael that we were crying and he goes, “Jenna Amy don’t cry your tears will freeze on your face then laughs at himself so loud haha. We will miss talking and teaching to him but we know that the Lord will take care of him. Before he said goodbye he said, “Oh my Jenna and Amy I’m so lucky to meet you are such beautiful ladies.” Thank you for giving me the gift.

Walking with President

For some reason every time Sister Harmer and I plan to go outside to contact people on the Square, we find President Holmes. This week was extra special probably because it will be one of the last times it happens. We found him in the North Visitors Center and we all walked out together as the Nativity came on. In complete silence we looked at each other and started to have tears in our eyes, the spirit was so strong. And all Presidents said is; “imagine if Joseph could see this now.” It was so powerful because really none of this would be here. And all the things he went through I don’t know if he could have imagined all these beautiful people. Again we talked about miracles we’ve had on the square. In that moment Sister Harmer and I truly felt our calling, and who we are right now.

President Seppi

Monday night President Seppi first counselor in our mission presidency came into the North Visitors Center and I shook his hand. He said, “ Sister Mettra looks like you’re going home pretty soon. Tears just filled my eyes and I said President let’s not talk about that!! And he said, “Well I don’t really know what Temple Square will do without you. It will be different.” We both just started to cry and he walked away. I’ll never forget that moment it really meant a lot to me.

The next two phone calls changed my mission, and I know these both needed to happen before I sent this email. The Referral Center has been one of my most favorite things on my mission. Connecting with people over the phone and really being able to talk to anyone.

David

I met this member named Tony while standing at the desk one Monday night and he gave me his best friend David to call. It was after a long talk he just thought of him and I knew that there was a reason why I needed to call. I prayed a lot about this phone call and finally I was able to talk to him. When he answered he was in a party but once he heard his best friend referred him he stepped outside. It was hard at first to get through to him but after a while he opened up. He has such a wonderful heart and had been through a lot of things in his life including losing his father not too long ago. I shared with him how I was able to gain comfort in the scriptures when I lost a good friend of mine. I asked him, where he thought his father went? And he said that he hoped there was something after this life. After reading Alma 40 and telling him how much the gospel meant to me. I felt prompted to read Moroni's promise. He paused for a long while and I just started to cry, I could feel it so strong. I said what are you thinking? He said, geez I’m at a lost of words I’m kinda choked up. I testified of the power of the spirit and promised him that he would see his father again. He didn’t have a testimony of prayer and didn’t think it was real. So I asked if I could kneel down and say a prayer on the phone. Imagine this college student outside of a party in Arizona praying on the phone. After the prayer it went silent the spirit was thick and I said, David I know that you have two fathers in Heaven listening to you and love you very much. I couldn’t believe the words that came out of my mouth. But I knew that it was straight from Heaven. We are now teaching David.

Forrest

Forrest was a member referral from actually one of the Elders that Kira taught in the MTC. Elder Riggs he is home now though but I was lucky enough to meet him and receive this referral. This is his cousin and honestly from the moment I received it I has the strongest impression that I needed to get a hold of him before I went home. Well last week I was able to talk to him for a couple of moments but Thursday was when I really talked to him. He had finals and was really busy but finally we got in contact. What an incredible person he is. I asked him what happiness was and he said he didn’t really know. He has been searching for a long time and wants answers. If I could truly write this whole conversation it would take me hours because it was so personal and spirit led. A lot happen over the course of those 40 min (and they are never that long) but this one needed more time and I was honored to spend this time on the phone with him. He told me that he didn’t trust people and was surprised how much he trusted me. And he said it’s probably because you are a million miles away and I can’t see you. And I said yeah maybe. I couldn’t hold back the tears any longer as I boldly said, “but really Forrest I think it’s because I’m a representative of Jesus Christ you can feel of his love because he knows you. And you can trust me because I represent him, and say the things he wants you to know. “The phone went silent and we both were at a loss of words. I promised that his heart would be healed if he would move his feet. I had the same familiar prompting to read in Enos and help him understand he could start fresh from all the pain and sorrow. I could barely read the words on the page my tears were so thick. I committed him to be baptized right there when the spirit was the strongest. He responded with a tear filled, yes I will. Honestly if I tried to prepare for this phone call before I never would have been ready. This changed my life, I know who I am and why I’m here. I am a representative of Jesus Christ and will be the rest of my life without my tag. We are teaching Forrest. I love him very much, such a special young man.

Sams Baptism

Ah today we were honored to attend the baptism of Sam Case! He has been in and out of prison and recovering meth addict so it was very special to see him start fresh and really leave the past behind him. We have been waiting all month for this and was a wonderful way to spend our last Saturday morning. I was asked to sing at his baptism. We met Sam on an Elders Tour and we connected instantly he is really wonderful. Well we walk in they didn’t know I was singing so there was a lot of last minute changes to the program. Typical ahhaha. But I was fine with it. So I went up and sang after his preacher in prison said some touching words from the bible. It was really interesting the things that he said about baptism but we welcomed it all. As I sang my song Sam sat there with his arms wide open and closed his eyes he was crying. Then when I was about to finish the last verse, “ So when life gets dark and dreary, don’t forget to pray.” “CLICK” Yep Same grabbed his disposable camera and took a picture of me hahahah. Everyone was laughing kinda killed the spirit but that’s ok! Then my favorite part his baptism. Don’t even worry he went under the water and when he came up he rolled and hit his head on the wall hahahahha. Not hard where he was hurt just hilarious. Most of the baptism was spent laughing, but it was really tender too. Sam is so special to us and we love him and are very proud of him. I attached pictures too!

Music and The Spoken Words Gives a Farewell To Departing Sisters

We were able to attend music and the spoken word for our last time on Sunday. It was so special in the conference center with all of the Christmas decorations and lots of people. My personal favorite was Away in a Manger it was beautiful and I really felt the spirit so strong. At the end Loyd Newell had us stand up and be recognized for our service and everyone clapped and there were a lot of tears. This is what it comes down to. 18 months. What an honor to be recognized in that setting. And the Mormon Tabernacle Choir Singing God Be With you Till We Meet Again. Tears were streaming that’s for sure.

Some Randoms to Close

· We had our Departing Temple Trip with President and Sister Holmes

· It looks like we are in a Zoo at night what is up with these animal hats, it’s cute on little kiddies but what is with these 30 year olds with elephants on their heads? It’s Strange.

· Its freezing Cold

· Sunday I’m singing O Holy Night in Church!

Well there is so much more I could say but I must send this so you receive it before I come home on Tuesday. I love you all so much and thank you from the bottom of my heart for all the Love and support you’ve given me. What greater gift can we give then the gospel of Jesus Christ? Share it with the world. I know that Jesus is the Christ, the Son of God and was born in a manger that still Christmas night. I love the Sheppard’s and how faithful they were to see the star. May we all look for that star in our life and find Christ.

Love Sister Mettra

Christmas Spirit

Dearest Family & Friends

The Lights are up and it’s amazing every night we get to feel the spirit of Christmas. Sister Harmer and I have been teaching a lot lately what a miracle. We are very busy and I'm so grateful for every moment! Last night was a night I'll never forget. Sister Harmer and I were privileged enough to walk around temple square with President Holmes. What a memorable experience talking about mission miracles and our thoughts about the season. We all had a little tear in our eye understanding that we would be leaving soon. The lights on Temple Square are amazing and beautiful I wouldn't have it another way. Walking through the square with President it seems as though we were a little more reverent remembering everything we have been through. The temple glowing in the night and all the thousands of people everywhere, and then over tones of the Mormon Tabernacle Choir playing. I love it here and know that this is truly what the Christmas Season is all about.

I've spent a lot of time in the RC this week it’s been pretty intense because I have so many people to call. Time is running out sadly and I have to be so in tune with the spirit to know whom I need to call before I leave. Here are a few stories from this week.

Paula

He straight up just got out of prison about 2 weeks ago. I met his uncle here and just talked to him for a few moments it was crazy I was just saying hello and told him I liked his shoes. Then he goes I don't know why Sister but I want you to call my nephew. And I said I would love to, he said I can just feel it. Well I felt very honored to actually call 2 of his nephews that were just realized from prison after 6 years time. I talked with Paula he was pretty confused who I was and why I was calling but I continued on. I said that his Uncle came here and thought of him out of anyone in the world. And he said girl I don't know why he thought of me. And I went on to teach him about the atonement and what that could mean for him in his life. Enos 1 was read and for a moment it was almost like I could feel the despair in this man although I wasn't there and I couldn't see him. He said, yeah I guess I need to find God again. I told him that God loved him very much and wanted to heal his heart. I asked to say a prayer with him before I got off the phone. Now please picture a ripped Tongan about 6'4 don't worry he told me. And I asked him if he would kneel down where he was and I was doing the same. I said a prayer and really at that moment I felt like I wasn't speaking. The words coming out were really what he needed. And I felt his heart change. We are calling him next week.

Jacob

So as most of you know well if you really know me. I'm obsessed with Texas! So naturally if we have someone we are teaching from Texas I'm really excited. Well I told this guy we met on chat that I loved Texas in fact it was the second best state in the country. He said oh really what is first, and then I gently reminded him California was first. He said that is a lie I HATE California and everyone from there. Ha isn't that a great way to start a lesson seeing the fact Sister Harmer and I are from California. Well never the less the spirit softened his heart a lot. I think he was only kidding he secretly loves California. Anyways we started teaching him about Adam and Eve he had a lot of questions. And it was amazing how Sister Harmer and I both were able to testify on free agency and why that is so important. Jacob is amazing he wants to have answers now, and is really searching. We will be teaching him again this week!

A funny.... Don't even worry I was talking to someone and they recently started practicing Buddhism. After talking for a while I said, " So how do you feel bottyism has helped you in your life." HAHAH I'm ridic.

Well I will have more to write next week just wanted to share a few thoughts. The square is getting busier every night. I'm so grateful to have attended the Christmas Devotional, my last time hearing from the prophet as a missionary. Tender moment. Just being there in that room meant so much. I know that Jesus Christ truly is the Savior of the World and was born to save us all. What a miracle he was born. I love him and I love my father in Heaven. Here is a clip from a child teaching us yet again what it is all about.

Christmas Spirit

I love you all and hope that your week is full of Christmas Spirit.

Love Sister Mettra

Pictures

I have large eyes.

Facial stretches before we hit the square.

Sister Moore, obviously one of my best friends.

Watching a movie.

Announcing, at work!

300 layers- it's so cold!

Bring them home

Sweet Hallelujah!!!! - Sister Moore's favorite phrase

Oh I'm smiling so big. I love every minute of this work and really feel it every time I open my mouth. Sister Harmer and I love each other and have had so many amazing experiences this week that I can barely type fast enough to do them justice. We are being so blessed for working so hard. I've come to understand that none of this is really possible unless we gain a witness for ourselves. And that was manifest to me many times this week. There are things that Sister Mettra can do that Jenna never could. I believe it; I know it and I live it everyday. I'm so grateful for the trials that I've faced because it made me who I am right now. Sometimes trials will sting and physically, spiritually, emotionally and it won't be easy. But I testify from the deepest corner of my heart that with Gods help its possible. As we meet these people it’s so important that we put them just a step closer to their final destination, our Father in Heaven. I'm so humbled by this opportunity to serve with everything I have. I think back sometimes how it was hard to leave everything I knew. But what I know now weighs out any doubts of the past. I know that God lives and that through the atonement of Jesus Christ we can be healed from anything. And I know that because I've lived it and felt the reality of the atonement of Jesus Christ. We don't walk alone.

You Will Find Peace

This week Sister Harmer had a V.I.P Tour and so I was on exchanges with Sister Manukian from Armenia. I said what can I help you with we can go anywhere and she said, Sister Mettra please teach me the RC I don't know how you do it. I was so humbled to teach her what a blessing. Well we sat down and I had conferenced her in and put her on mute so she could hear the conversation. It was so tender she had a note pad and was taking notes of everything I was saying. I really prayed for Heavens help in my head, " Father we need a miracle." Well I literally called 15 people and no one answered. I could feel the pressure I really wanted to be able to help her love the RC but no one was answering. I had the flash back of this members face we met at conference and thought to call one of the names he had given us. Well two rings go by and I knew this was it. Devin answered the phone and we started talking and I introduced myself and told him where I was from why I was calling. He wasn't totally excited to talk to me but I kept the faith and continued to talk to him. Finally when nothing was working I paused and asked if he had a faith in Jesus Christ. Another pause and I thought man I hope he doesn't hang up. " I guess I'm Mormon but I haven't been since I was 14 after my parents got divorced." Its amazing how one inspired simple question can change everything. I felt a reverence for him like Heavenly Father was literally like, ok Sister Mettra I'm putting him in your hands lead him back. I promised him that he could find eternal peace. He opened up and started sharing more about what was holding him back. I read Enos 1 with him and asked him, what would it mean for you to have your guilt and pain swept away? I started to feel a stronger presence of the spirit then ever before and realized how precious this Son of God was to our Father in Heaven. I said, Devin you aren't too far-gone, your father misses you and he wants you back. I paused to let the spirit testify and it did so powerfully. I invited him to pray that night and ask God if he was there. Then that familiar spirit entered my heart as it has a few times before, " Sister Mettra pray with him." I asked him if we could pray and we all got down on our knees. Devin in AZ and Sister Manukian and I in SLC. Tears came to my eyes as I prayed with Devin. I know that this moment will be vital for the path he will walk for the rest of his life. And I am so grateful I was able to be apart of it.

I Love My Jesus

I can’t leave out Jimmy because it’s just too funny. Jimmy is our investigator from Indiana and says the funniest things when we are teaching him. I'll just quote a few he is so tender and really just wants to do what God wants him too.

" I'm married to the Lord Jesus I must not fornicate, praise Jesus you hear."

" Them lionesses keep coming and tempting me I'm serious you hear."

" My stony heart turned into a fleshy one, so keep them devils away."

There are many more but he is one of our favorites and always says the sweetest most intense prayers I've ever heard.

Memebers Matter

Sometimes as missionaries we tend to forget the members. When in reality they are just as important and it drives me crazy when people treat them differently or pass over them on the square. We met the most amazing members in the Beehive House (which BTW is amazing.) Logan and his Dad taught us what it means to love your family. The father talked about how him and his wife couldn't have children and were told don't even try. But now have 4 healthy children and Logan is preparing for a mission. As we went through the house and shared about Brigham Young the spirit was so strong and all of us really felt it. But the most powerful moment which maybe a lot of you don't know is a revelation in the Doctrine and Covenants was received in the Beehive House. We got to the room and we stopped and asked the Dad how he raised 4 wonderful children in the gospel. He replied, my wife and I put them in places where they could receive personal revelation. Sister Harmer explained the revelation that was given in that room and how powerful it is for our testimonies. Then I simply paused and said, " I remember the night I found God." Tears were streaming down my face my emotions were so thick because for a moment I was back in my car that rainy night and remembered how I felt. Prayers are heard. At the end of the tour the father looked straight into my eyes and said "don’t you ever give up you will change many lives." I'm so grateful for strong members of the church that understand what this is all about.

Amy

She is an investigator we received from Alyssa and she is so dedicated. But also says interesting things such as this......

We shared a scripture with Amy. She's from Colorado. After we shared the scripture, we paused, leaving room for the Spirit. Amy broke the silence with an unexpected......"cute". Not to mention her response in a later lesson about Joseph's first vision....."awwwww". Thanks Amy.

The Heavens Opened

So do you remember Richard the one that calls me his little lady? Well we are teaching him and he has been kinda sick the last couple of days. I asked is the missionaries had ever come and he said I don't know I might not be here Jenna. I said come on Richard are you doing street things hahah and he started laughing and said yeah you know me Jenna baby I be a street man. Well Sister Harmer and I shared some scriptures and it was a wonderful lesson and then we wanted to close with a prayer. We all got on our knees and we asked him what he would like us to pray for. Missionaries! And so we both looked at each other and said ok we will pray that the missionaries get there soon. And then he cut is off and said hold up yep they be at my door. Them missionaries are walking up let me get the Dog! Ha-ha we were smiling and laughing so hard cause we hadn't started praying and the missionaries were on his doorstep. He answered the door and said hey I got your people from Utah on the phone! Hahaha he said baby Jenna I'll you back ok Amy k bye. What an amazing/ funny moment! Heavenly Father was watching.

Orange Street Branch

We had an amazing opportunity to speak in another service on Sunday. Its not a ward it’s actually a half way house for women who have just come out of prison. Kinda scary I'll be honest but we were able to give them peace in their growing process. I was asked to sing, and I sang did you think to pray. Looking into these women’s eyes most have been beaten and told they are worthless and the messages that day gave them hope. Michelle was my favorite from Texas duh! Well she said, " Sister Mettra your voice healed me today thank you." She had been beaten and many other things and had a very rough life. The atonement is so real. And I knew God loved his daughters in that room that had gone away for a season. But now are looking for peace.

Stone

Sister Harmer secretly speaking Danish and Spanish so we took a Danish tour with a wonderful man named Stone! I just smiled and bore my testimony when prompted but one of the most powerful moments with Stone was in the Assembly Hall. I said " Stone God loves you and he wants you to feel it for yourself. I always believed in God and Jesus Christ but it wasn't until I got down on my knees and asked until I knew. You can know too." He looked up at me and said, " That was beautiful thank you." Gift of tongues is real.

Following The Spirit Might Require Literally Stalking/ Chasing

I will leave you with the biggest miracle this week. Tony! We love him so much but let me explain how we found him. We were finishing a Gods Plan and walking past the Christus when I saw a man sitting in a black leather jacket and the spirit yelled TALK TO HIM. Well he started walking and so I looked at Sister Harmer and said we have to follow him. Well we did all the way down the ramp through the North Visitors Center and outside creepy whatever. We walked right over to him and I said yeah we were following you sorry ha. You look like my friend hahaha. We quickly realized this was a very sacred moment led only by the spirit. He said he feels like the black sheep in his family. We both started to cry and told him how much God loved him and that he didn't have to do this alone. We both shared powerful stories and it was exactly what he needed. He told us that he was gay and it’s been really hard. Good thing Sister Harmer and I love gay people and just really want them to know that God loves them. We asked his favorite hymn and it was because I have been given much. I sang it in against the wall while it was no more then 20 degrees outside but as I opened my mouth I felt warm. We are so grateful for meeting Tony and know that the spirit truly led us to him.

Well I love you all so much and know that Sister Harmer and are bringing them home! Everyone we can find!

"If logic brought you in, then logic will bring you out." - President Holmes we can only know this is true through the spirit.

Love Sister Mettra

I'm so Grateful!!!

Happy Thanksgiving!!

Well I'm so grateful for this week and all the things I'm learning everyday. Sister Harmer and I are tarring it up really working so hard and I love every minute of it. Tonight we are actually going to see Savior of The World which I'm really excited for because I was in it a couple of years ago. We have had quite the week as always. We started with leadership training in the Conference Center NBD. I'm so grateful to be serving here; I would never be able to do that at any other time. We really do receive high quality training always President Holmes is amazing and so inspired. So let me just tell you what we have introduced to the Temple Square Mission...... Cell phones! Ha yeah you are all probs thinking what? Didn't you already have those, FALSE. We have had special 80's addition of pagers for 17 months of my mission ha. I'm straight up don't know how to text which if you know me is very strange. Sister Harmer and I are discovering how together. So this is the rule, 10 words or less... Super weird yeah I thought so too. But guess what it is possible. It is so inspired here listen to a couple of these. Ps the purpose of texting is for daily contacting our investigators. So we send them little 10 word texts and pray about it before its so intense but it works. It all depends on their needs of course.

* You can do hard things.

* Church on Sunday you promised

* Put down the drink, God will give you strength

* When you left your room this morning, did you pray?

* God Loves you, we're praying for you

* If only you could see yourself as God sees you.

* 10% for 100% blessings pay your tithing.

Those are just a couple but it’s amazing what happens. Two sisters used these 10 words to uplift an investigator, and said something to the affect of don’t worry God knows you he loves you. Little did they know the exact moment they sent that text message, his car was flipping over and spinning on ice. He survived and when he looked at his phone he saw those 10 words. He is being baptized. What a miracle this is to uplift them and give that that strength to keep going. If we only teach them twice a week Satan has room to play for the other days. False not with this program. We are seeing it very helpful. Brevity and Clarity in all things invites the spirit. I love how much this mission has changed while I've been here. Miracles daily.

I HAVE to GO JENNA!

So Brian Kekana is probably one of my favorite investigators he is so humble and just wants to come closer the Savior. He is so amazing and I'm honored to have met him on chat many months ago. When Sister Harmer and I were teaching him last week he was telling us he wants to change he wants to be better. Ps keep in mind he is in Africa. I said Brian you can want to change, but unless you move your feet you will never be able to change. You need to go to church because you will be able to receive answers to your prayers, and finally meet the missionaries. " I HAVE TO GO JENNA" Sister Harmer and I just paused and looked at each other cause he thought he was hanging up. " I have to go to church my Jenna I will go this Sunday because you are my angel and I know he sent you." So tender he loves God so much and just wants to be better everyday. He will be baptized before I go home!

You are my Angel

So Sister Harmer was on the phone and I was chatting with this women named Rakhee I know without a shadow of a doubt I needed to talk to her. It was truly amazing how the spirit led my hands to type the things I did. She wants to learn more about how to have peace. Here are some parts to our chat. She is amazing we will be teaching her.

Me: I promise you I know I'm a stranger but I have been healed from things that I thought were never possible

Me: You are a daughter of God and he wants to hear from you

rakhee: I know Jenna it is His wish who brought me here to talk to you. You are his angel..I think

rakhee: really..I want to know more about this Jenna

Me: Because I wouldn't be sitting here today if it wasn't for the gospel and what I have come to know for myself

rakhee: please tell me more about your experiences,..

Me: rakhee God has a plan for you. You are a daughter of God and he loves you very much he doesn't want you to have to do it alone. He has provided a way for your family to be together forever. And I know that you will receive an answer to your prayers. Your Father in Heaven knows your heart.

Me: how do you feel?

rakhee: I feel good...really

Me: Rakhee that is the spirit testifying to your heart that God loves you

rakhee: I feel it I feel it Jenna you are awesome my friend

I'm so humbled to have met her and know that it was all the spirit.

I am Grateful For.......

The Savior

My Father in Heaven who loves me and hears every prayer

The Book of Mormon its true by the way

My Family

My nametag

Temple Square

My voice that I can testify to the World that Jesus is the Christ

A living prophet

Nature

Music

The spirit

My companion and all of the past ones

My hero's

My Journal

Mail

Winter Mints

My eyes because I can see Gods creations, and the Lost Children

Smiles

Knowledge

Laughing!!! HaHAHA

Jokes

The Temple

Mom and Dad <3

Our investigators!

The Priesthood

Lotion

LOVE

Phones, so we can teach the world

That the Savior Jesus Christ was born

http://lds.org/media-library/video/mormon-messages?lang=eng&start=49&end=60#2010-05-10-my-new-life

We have so much to be grateful for. What is your title of faith? Right now I am a reprehensive of Jesus Christ but had to work for that title. What are you willing to sacrifice? I reflected on that a lot this week. 18 Months ago I took of any other title I had and replaced it with Jesus Christ, I'm so thankful.

And a million other things I didn't type.... I am grateful to know this gospel is true with all my heart. And to understand how much God loves each and every one of us. I am thankful for the testimony I've gained of The Book of Mormon and it’s changed my life. I love serving at this time and everything I'm learning.

I love you All! And I'm so grateful for each of you . Thank you for everything you have done.

Love Sister Mettra

In no particular order

Sister Mettra with some other nice Sisters at Zone leader conference at the Capitol. "Like Wo."

Changing

Sister Frye's last trax ride.

Mo Tab

Me with Sister Nelson

My Polly

Dear Loves....

Well today starts my last transfer on my mission its really bittersweet. I gave a big hug goodbye to Sister Frye this morning and wished her good luck in her new life i will miss her a lot but am excited for her in every way. Sister Harmer is my new companion from San Jose California!!! Love her we were in the MTC together and we have already had a wonderful morning full of miracles. It doesn't seem real that its the last transfer conference and everything Sister Harmer and I are feeling like its a dream ha. This morning we called Brian Kekana and he is an angel. I haven't been able to get a hold of him in a really long time so I'm grateful that he answered. He just said, " Jenna my angel Jenna I feel so lost you must help me my angel Jenna." if you don't remember Brian he lives in South Africa and he is amazing. What a humbling moment to teach this man all the way in Africa and he wants to know his Savior. Sister Harmer and I just teared up a little as he poured out his soul to us we love him. He said " Jenna my God don't love me anymore so you pray for me." I said, " Brian God loves you so much and he wants to hear from you." I decided to sing him a primary song, I know my Heavenly Father loves me. After i sang it he said, " Jenna i feel it in my soul it is my song I feel it deep I miss your voice." We committed him to go to church and move his feet towards Christ, I'll never forget those words and the sincere desire he has to want to be better. We are never alone, and our Father in Heaven loves us he wants to hear from us.

Kelly!

So update on Kelly so excited! Well Sister Frye was in the temple yesterday so I called Kelly and she is doing amazing. Her and her boyfriend are getting married and then planning to be sealed in a year. She kept telling me over and over how grateful she is for Christine and I sharing with her the gospel and helping her feel the spirit. She said " Jenna this is all the Lords will because i feel his hand in my life right now as I'm learning from you." We see her being baptized sometime this month! Kelly lives in Las Vegas.

Tabatha David and Sam

Ah I love them sooo much! We met Tabatha and David on the tour with little Noah that got baptized. They are adorable and I love them. Tabatha said , Sister Mettra will you teach me how I can go inside the temple one day? So tender. So we put the referral through and Sister Missionaries in Salt Lake South are teaching them! We are so excited. What a blessing they want to be baptized so we will be going to that this transfer.

Doctrine and Covenants 122:7

7 And if thou shouldst be cast into the ^apit, or into the hands of murderers, and the sentence of death passed upon thee; if thou be cast into the ^bdeep; if the billowing surge conspire against thee; if fierce winds become thine enemy; if the heavens gather blackness, and all the elements combine to ^chedge up the way; and above all, if the very jaws of ^dhell shall gape open the mouth wide after thee, know thou, my son, that all these things shall give thee ^eexperience, and shall be for thy good.

I feel like this scripture perfectly depicts my Sunday ha not in a depressing way but I literally felt so burdened down. My companion was leaving and a lot was happening in the mission, people dropping us, family, everything was being pushed upon my heart. I was left in my room praying and crying harder then I have in a long time, I had walked my last steps i couldn't walk another that day just so much emotion. And as I sat up I wrote in my journal and realized that this moment was vital to pass to my last transfer. This mission means everything to me and as I feel the weight of the world on my shoulders I can literally be free when I trust the Lord. Now that doesn't mean its easy or even fair, but it is worth it. I received such a clear answer when I read the scriptures and prayed, this is all true. My heart is so full of gratitude to my Father in Heaven, I can do hard things and smile. Cause really your smile is the first testimony people see. ) And I know that the Lord carried me through this week there is no other way I would have made it. I'm so grateful for the strength i have gained through these many months. I know the atonement is real, and heals every moment of pain if we will let it.

I love you all so much and just wanted to end with a new favorite quote!

" God gave us memories, that we might have June roses in the December of our lives." - James Barrie

May we all look for the June roses and remember what the Lord has given us. Press forward in faith, this life is amazing and I love it all even the thorns. Thank you for your prayers I feel them.

Love Sister Mettra